Forest 1 Weymouth 1 FA Cup First Round

You can just sense the vultures gathering down TrentSide, I'll use Radio Fives new name for us (last season it was 'Struggling Nottingham Forest'),'Former European Champions Nottingham Forest' sink to a new low. The replay is going to be on Sky next Monday, and the only reason they've chosen this match over the others is they can sense the real possibility of a new humiliation for us and they want to be there to show it LIVE!!
I've been reading and hearing other peoples comments on this game and it's started me wondering, Have I lost the passion I used to have for the club? that can't be possible, if I had I would no longer spend 3 hours in the car on a Saturday getting to and from the match, I'd stay in, nice and warm and listen to the Premiership or whatever on the radio. But the way Alex and Mist Rollin in and 1865 (see links to right) are ranting about this result I feel that maybe I've lost the desire I used to have for the club and , like the players, just couldn't give a toss anymore.
After this game, I was hurt, angry, annoyed that the team I love could be so dispassionate and uncaring when they pull on the Garibaldi but one of my first thoughts was 'Well it's the cup, these results happen' but why do they keep on happening to us?? And why don't I give a toss anymore?
Last season I was ranting with the best of them, becoming so annoyed with the team in front of me that I resorted to doing something I've never done in my life before, booing and abusing the players wearing MY shirt. And it is my shirt, just like it is Alex's and 1865's and Mist rollin in's and 20 odd thousand other Trickies who are living through this with us. I had arguments with other fans in the stand, I literally screamed my lungs out to try and get the players to understand exactly what this club means to me, but this season nothing!
I don't know where my desire and passion have gone but if I can't find it how can I expect the players to find theirs?
People blame the manager but I think the problems at our club go deeper than that, we keep on changing managers and nothing happens. Is there anyone out there even willing to take the job on?
I've no idea what the answer is but please someone give me my passion back, I really do miss it.